Hello I Have Anxiety.

No it’s not romantic or beautiful and no I don’t need a man to squeeze me and tell me I’m okay . I like to crush myself beneath my 50 pound gravity blanket and let it rock me to sleep . All these years I thought I had control of it, my chest tighten and my breathing changes and usually I tell myself that I’m okay and everything is fine and it disappears. Well today I was hyperventilating and internally screaming and I had to stop my self , it felt like the air had been knocked out of my lungs , most important was the feeling after , the feeling of defeat . All these years I had control and just like that the air left my lungs and my chest caved and I was no longer the one in charge . There is no secret to anxiety , there is no survival guide or preparedness package. However there is a God who sits high and looks low with a son who hung on a cross for my sins and intercedes on my behalf . Where there is a heaven there is a way , so when these things happen I’m learning to let go and let God . He is my rock even when I an unsteady he is my stability and for that and so many other things I can’t say thank you enough , I am so grateful words aren’t enough. HALLELUJAH! It’s the highest praise . – My

Traveling cleansed my cluttered mind

I am no expert in dealing with stress , my anxiety and stress are the same person in my world. However for the first time since starting my job in social work and really all of my working years I used vacation time. I used to think I should save it up for somewhere big and special and then I could go with no worries for however long I chose , but then I would leave my job and all of that saving would be for nothing. So I went to Canada for the first time ever and I saw Quebec City, Ottawa, Montreal , Toronto and Niagara Falls in five days .

I landed in Montreal at 10:15 am , flying in over a beautiful snow blanketed Montreal . It felt like something out of a movie ,we were flying in the fog and clouds so for a while there was nothing to see until the pilot announced we were preparing to land. It didn’t take much longer after that for me to go through customs meet my friend Michelle and go pick up our rental car or our adventure mobile. We started our adventure with a bang , we drove two hours to Ottawa. Our first Canadian meal was BFF or Burgers and Fries Forever. Our burger of choice was the Korean bbq burger with a side of poutine and this started an addiction.

Honestly of all the poutine we consumed this one had the best gravy and it was vegetable gravy go figure. Ottawa being the capital felt appropriate in an unexpected way , it’s not the cleanest city I’ve been to but the buildings in the historical district speak for themselves . Ottawa led to our second addiction of the trip: Tim Hortons , I’m so sad there is not one in Florida because there tea lattes were my life for 5 days . I have a Tim Horton reward card and I’m sad I can’t use it anymore. After spending time in Ottawa we drove back to our Airbnb in Montreal, we rented an apartment and it really became a cozy and comfortable place to come home to after long days of exploring.

On our second day we decided to go on a big adventure we drove 6 hours. Montreal to Niagara Falls and Niagara Falls to Toronto and back to Montreal . It was ambitious but we survived , we listened to a mix of music that included kpop , rock , rap , acoustic and soul and we jammed .

We were underwhelmed by Niagara Falls but it was still so beautiful. I think it all the ice masked some of it beauty but even still it was undeniable, the sun created a rainbow and it added to its beauty it made it impossible not to smile .

We drove on , we crossed the border once again into Ontario. Heading towards Toronto. We ventured to this Korean stationary store , I have a love for overly cute stationary I am the keeper of a happy planner so I can’t help myself . I bought pens and Hello Kitty head rest pillows for my car . When dinner time arrives we decided to stay in the Korean village that night it was so good .We had kimchi fried rice and cheesy tteokbokki as well as eel bibimbap and fried tofu . After that we headed to the mall where I got my Alex and ani “Toronto ” bracelet also visited Drakes store “OVO” . The final thing on our list for Toronto was to take a walk in the city and find the Toronto sign . Mission accomplished.

After a day of a total of 11 driving hours we decided to sleep in and explore Montreal ! , both old and new . I woke up in a winter wonderland , it was snowing and it was stunning. We wanted to have a French meal and really explore the city on foot and that is exactly what we did . We ate breakfast in the apartment, it was a recreation of our left overs and it was great way to start a peaceful day.

One final place to drive to : Quebec City this has to be at the top of my list of favorite places I’ve been. It’s so outlandishly charming its definitely a place you explore on foot. If you go to Quebec you must see its city. We ate really yummy food , traced the foot steps of the Korean drama “Goblin : the lonely great God” . The architecture in the city is something to marvel at , the cobblestone streets and the basilicas. The view from the viewing deck at the top of the city is worth the climb and the footsteps. Truly it is a ruby in this world .

I am completely in love with Canada from Bonjour to Au reviour , it was full of surprises and there was art on what seemed to be every corner . Cafes are abundant and equally delicious . In cities where the primary language was one that I don’t speak , everyone I encountered still communicated with me and I’m so appreciative. Truly Montreal, Ottawa , Quebec City , Toronto and Niagara Falls thank you so much for having me. You were a dream come true and an unforgettable adventure. Thank you for allowing me to leave my foot prints in your beautiful cities . I will see you again . – Myriesha