What’s on my mind : Packing , veggies and Los Angeles

I’m preparing for my next big adventure, the farthest west I’ve ever traveled and by the title you’ve guessed correctly I’m going to Los Angeles California . I’ve never traveled this far west and I’m teaming with excitement . I’m not sure what to expect but I am prepared for it all , when I get ready to go somewhere new I use it as my opportunity to reflect on where I’ve been and what I have yet to see. In the midst of my excitement is how beautiful this world really is and how grateful I am that I am blessed to see it . If someone would have told me that one day I would get on a plane and fly to Quebec I would tell you that you were living inside my dreamscape in my wildest dream I never imagined . It is with this same heart I will journey LA full of excitement and humbled to live the life I do.

Along with preparing to go on vacation I’ve been playing with the foods I eat , when I was a teenager I was diagnosed with gastritis as a result I have flare ups with terrible abdominal pain so I’m attempting to make majority of my diet plant based . I am cooking constantly and discovering many new and yummy foods along the way . As of now I’m still consuming all the bad foods on the weekend but as I adapt I plan to cut down eventually down to only almond and soy milk. There has been a slightly noticeable difference in my skin , the more veggies I eat my skin clears up and also I’m not starving and I was so sure at some point I would be. Along with the constant cooking is constant trips to the produce market. This definitely is a lifestyle change however I’ve been feeling so good I figure keep going.

– My

Field Notes On Love

There is something so classic about the way this story is put together , it is sweet and innocent but it also ended in a way that gave the characters a promising ending. Hugo is a young man from England born as 1 or 6 , he is a septuplet! Because of the rarity he is a local celebrity , his mom runs a blog about him and his five siblings. Hugo seems to have everything someone needs to live a happy life but he feels like a he’s lacking individuality. Mae is queen of the passion projects with a very specific medium , film making . Mae prides herself on being open and honest , she’s transparent about everything besides her self and her feelings but with the encouragement of her grandmother that believes in living life to the fullest , one week will change everything.

I loved this story , I loved how just like the first time you fall in love it came in waves but it made a point constantly that communication is the most important thing. This story came from two sides of the same coin ,”falling in love again wouldn’t be the worst thing, even though highly unlikely ” and ” Love doesn’t exist it’s just a temporary emotion, it can’t last” . There was a natural flow of emotions mixed with and innocence that made it impossible not to smile . I encourage you to read ,”Field Notes on Love”. We all have dealt with love and loss an could use a dose of happy. – Myriesha

Hello I Have Anxiety.

No it’s not romantic or beautiful and no I don’t need a man to squeeze me and tell me I’m okay . I like to crush myself beneath my 50 pound gravity blanket and let it rock me to sleep . All these years I thought I had control of it, my chest tighten and my breathing changes and usually I tell myself that I’m okay and everything is fine and it disappears. Well today I was hyperventilating and internally screaming and I had to stop my self , it felt like the air had been knocked out of my lungs , most important was the feeling after , the feeling of defeat . All these years I had control and just like that the air left my lungs and my chest caved and I was no longer the one in charge . There is no secret to anxiety , there is no survival guide or preparedness package. However there is a God who sits high and looks low with a son who hung on a cross for my sins and intercedes on my behalf . Where there is a heaven there is a way , so when these things happen I’m learning to let go and let God . He is my rock even when I an unsteady he is my stability and for that and so many other things I can’t say thank you enough , I am so grateful words aren’t enough. HALLELUJAH! It’s the highest praise . – My

I Don’t Have All The Answers and it’s Okay.

I suppose with time comes understanding , I used to think that “adulting” meant having all of the answers but I’m realizing that it is not so. Young and old we are all just trying to figure it out and by it I mean life. There is no schematic on life , it doesn’t come with an instruction guide , you learn by living . Watching your peers will teach you that living is hard, apart of getting older is new responsibilities. Were at an age where we are finding our footing, building our own stability . Some of my friends are parents , wives and husbands and that opens up more uncharted territory. As kids we prepared to have a home of our own , to cook and to clean and be independent whilst constantly calling home for every little inconvenience. Don’t worry I haven’t forgotten about those of you who snuck out of your parents home with various items for the up keeping of your own home. To think that here we are , each our own archipelago full of lesson we didn’t learn with each other, laced with experiences we never talked about with anyone else but ourselves in the mirror. It’s crazy to think that we are each our own allegory , capable of teaching someone right and wrong . I think sometimes we get so caught up in having the right answer , we become afraid to say ,”I don’t know”. Especially when get to the stage in our life where we are someone’s partner or parent , the curiosity that was once welcomed is pushed aside for something more concrete. I want to let you know that it’s okay to not know the answer to a “who?” , “what?” ,”when?” , “where?” and “why?” . Even the “what if ?” Doesn’t need an answer, everything takes time. The answers we didn’t have today as life teaches us new lessons we may have tomorrow. I strive to never stop learning,when we don’t know the answer we’re simply just growing. – Myriesha

There’s something so cynical about being in your twenties

I’m not sure whether it’s the sarcasm that spans across the Internet but the thing I’m certain of is that we feel the same emotions . Right now politics and ethics are the core of sarcasm because it feels like every man and women for themselves .People are stubborn and not open to conversation and to put it simply some people are beyond speaking to. It’s kinda of funny that we as a generation live all over the world with different world views but we experience the same things. We laugh at many of the same things , we scream at many of the same things and it occurred to me that our emotions have brought us closer. Maybe this is why twitter thrives you can instantaneously share your thoughts or a joke and even tell a story using a thread and then get feed back from people who agree with as well as people who disagree with you. When you tell a story you can meet people who have experienced things the same as you or similar to you. The cynicism doesn’t stop with politics or ethics , if you haven’t scrolled through twitter and read the opinions on dating and why both men and women are trash then we should trade twitter feeds. All of these tweets stemming from broken hearts that haven’t been mended. For those of us who are attempting to plan for our future and have a retirement plan in order to retire with out worry and send our kids to school without debt . I assure you we have many things to say about social security and the national debt average . So to my twenty somethings that feel like we have nothing to look forward to, I want you to know that trouble dont last always and as we age we heal , we’re only getting better with time and we’re just getting started. Remember to breathe. – My