I’m finding myself envious these days .

I’m working ( I do social work) I’m sitting on the beach with one of my family’s and there are children and couples all around enjoying each other’s company . Then there’s me dressed for work in solitude and sometimes I find myself envious of there happiness and I know that everything that glitters isn’t gold you have to work for that happiness. I find myself thinking about working with someone for that happiness and sharing our joy with each other and it seems so peaceful . It’s crazy to say this but even at 25 years young I feel so ready to settle down . I love to travel but I would be open to having a travel partner and experiencing the beauty of the world together. Even in this envious state seeing all the family brings me so much joy so maybe one day I’ll be blessed with my own . – Myriesha

I Don’t Have All The Answers and it’s Okay.

I suppose with time comes understanding , I used to think that “adulting” meant having all of the answers but I’m realizing that it is not so. Young and old we are all just trying to figure it out and by it I mean life. There is no schematic on life , it doesn’t come with an instruction guide , you learn by living . Watching your peers will teach you that living is hard, apart of getting older is new responsibilities. Were at an age where we are finding our footing, building our own stability . Some of my friends are parents , wives and husbands and that opens up more uncharted territory. As kids we prepared to have a home of our own , to cook and to clean and be independent whilst constantly calling home for every little inconvenience. Don’t worry I haven’t forgotten about those of you who snuck out of your parents home with various items for the up keeping of your own home. To think that here we are , each our own archipelago full of lesson we didn’t learn with each other, laced with experiences we never talked about with anyone else but ourselves in the mirror. It’s crazy to think that we are each our own allegory , capable of teaching someone right and wrong . I think sometimes we get so caught up in having the right answer , we become afraid to say ,”I don’t know”. Especially when get to the stage in our life where we are someone’s partner or parent , the curiosity that was once welcomed is pushed aside for something more concrete. I want to let you know that it’s okay to not know the answer to a “who?” , “what?” ,”when?” , “where?” and “why?” . Even the “what if ?” Doesn’t need an answer, everything takes time. The answers we didn’t have today as life teaches us new lessons we may have tomorrow. I strive to never stop learning,when we don’t know the answer we’re simply just growing. – Myriesha